This is my Story

Let me tell you my story of how I was diagnosticated with a terminal breast cancer for not having you, beautiful ladies, be through the same as I have

It happens that we all get information about Cancer by different communication means, however, they never tell us where and whom specialist we should go to (well at least it is like that here in Mexico).

I made the mistake of having my mammography, ultrasound, pap smear and colposcopy checked by my gynecologist. In 2013, I discovered that I had 3 little balls in my left breast and the gynecologist told me that I had nothing to worry about given that it was just cystic fibrosis, 80% of women have it and there's neither need to operate nor to consume medicine to dissappear the little balls.

Really confident, I let one year pass until I noticed the three little balls had visibly grown and my breast started to hurt a lot. Therefore, I decided to go to the General Hospital of Mexico. In there, I went through mammography and ultrasound again, and the oncologist determined that I had to be performed a biopsy.

28 days later, I was given the results of the biospy and the oncologist told me, "Ma'am, I'm so sorry but the biopsy result is positive, you have a severe Breast Cancer, we'll run you different lab tests for dismissing that you have metastasis". All my lab tests were going negative but after the bone scanning went positive, they told me that I had an incurable Cancer.

Doctors said that I didn't have to put up with the bone pain, since it is so terrible, so they sent me to the Pain Clinic where I was under the influence of morphine. By now, I've already had 20 chemos for the breast tumors, and 4 months ago I got great news, they told me that the tumors had disappeared, 3 tumors, one of them an orange-size. However, the bone metastasis goes on. I've received 15 radiationes on my spine and the upper left back. The specialists told me that I was not longer a candidate for getting radiations given that rather than lasting 5 years more, I would only live just one month, moreover, there was the risk of burning to a crisp and damaging other organs. So, I'll continue just with chemotherapy.

I get injected chemos for my bones, Trastuzumab and Zometa (Zoledronic Acid),  besides those, I have chemo 500mg pills for 14 days, 4 pills in the morning and 4 pills at night, which are pretty expensive.

I haven't been on surgery due to the metastasis, the oncologists explained me that they'll not endanger my lifetime. Do I feel tired? OF COURSE! After all, my body has been through a lot of pain, I've been one year with really agresive chemotherapy (4 red, 12 white and 4 yellow). Chemotherapy terminated with my beautiful long hair, my eyebrows and my eyelashes too. However, that didn't and shall never finish with my willingness to LIVE! At the very beginning of my diagnosis I was very mad, depressed and all the time wondering, WHY ME?! But now, far from seeing Cancer as an enemy, I see it as life learning. Now I don't ask why but, WHAT FOR?! I'll keep on fighting without taking off those boxing gloves I've put on.

I have two huge motors in my life: my beloved daughters I love so so much. Life is made of little moments "Live them fiercely as every sigh were the very last one".